I guess I did the wrong thing in believing that you wouldn’t judge, or that you might be by my side when I was going through a hard time. I was foolish to think that after so many instances of you proving that you were completely self-involved and self-centred that you might come through for me. I dropped everything to help you when you were sad over something that, outwardly, looked minor. If you said you needed me, that was good enough. I was there. I go through the biggest crisis of my life, and I don’t hear a single word from you.
Nothing when a member of my family dies.
Nothing when everything is falling apart.
I see I’ve been firmly replaced, and that would probably be fine if you hadn’t let me down every single time I’ve needed you. When I needed you most, there was radio silence and the most I saw from you was second-hand ramblings about fucking nothing.
I don’t know whether you genuinely believe your life is shit, or whether it’s all part of your public persona. Either way, there’s a problem there that you need to address, and I hope that you do get around to addressing it instead of plugging the hole with people that will come and go because it’s not their responsibility to fix you. That responsibility is yours - it always has been and always will be. Hopefully you’ll figure that out before you hurt more people who actually care about you.
What a shame that you continue to break the hearts of people who care about you, and mean nothing to the people you wish did care.